The Needle In The Haystack

July 26th, 2010

Love. Men and women search for it their whole lives and never find it. I've been searching for quite some time, and yet I have not found it myself. I want it so badly that it is at times a constant ache in my heart, however I have also paused to consider whether or not I am ready for it. I believe that I am. I wasn't always mature enough to handle it, but I'm older now, and while age is no sign of maturity, experience certainly is. With that maturity comes the realization that love is no easy thing to find. Love is more the needle in the haystack variety. Some people just get lucky. Other people have years of searching, and even then might not find it. Girls talk to me everyday. Girls flirt with me everyday. I remember the days when I found it hard to even say anything to a girl. Even something as simple as the greeting word, "Hi." I was quite shy and very inexperienced. Today I am a completely different person. I want to find that girl I will marry and love, however I am taking a break from the search. This is not a break I am taking because of pain from the past haunting me. This is a break for some 'me' time. It is filled with music, writing, and loneliness. I find that I'm completely alright with this. It feels good to just sit back and be who I am. My music and writings have gotten worlds better. I am no longer putting so much effort into actively seeking for you, whoever you may be. I am merely waiting for you to walk by, hear the music, read these lyrics and poems, and decide that this is where you want to be. I promised I'd never sing of love if it did not exist, but darling, you'll be my only exception.